Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in omgitserica's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
8:13 am	ALINA THE FUCKING CUNT that stupid fucking bitch took a picture of me and dan. and sent me the picture. and sent a message to dan's girlfriend. which was the last thing i wanted. i want him to be happy. and hes happy with her. not me. what if dan doesnt ever want to hang out again? and i mean just friends. no friends with benefits crap. this would be a hell of alot easier if i found someone i could move on with. i was disussing it with the boy john. he needs someone too. but i never met him in person. just myspace through this girl lisa in my biology class. and john likes his best friend. if i ever see alina again, i'm gonna fucking punch her lights out. stupid cuntbag. i gotta meet up with this john. maybe lisa from bio will introduce me. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 30th, 2006
8:11 am	FUCK SHIT DAMN CRAP MUSIC: wow, i can get sexual - say anything i made out with a taken boy. dan. and it was wrong. and i feel kinda bad now. but i'm SO glad it happened. he asked me walking back "what would you do if you if i kissed you later?" and i said "kiss you back" and then changed it to "i'd be the happiest girl alive" and right before i went to go in the turnstiles, i gave him a hug and he kissed me. and rob freaked out. and we were spotted though. by this girl kacey. and hopefully she doesnt know anyone that will make that a bad thing. 'cept rob does. and he saw us. and started like kicking the shit out of dan. and dan's all "we'll talk about this later!" and i forced dan to come on the train with me halfway. it took forever for the train to come. so he leaned up against the elevator and grabbed my shirt and said "live in the moment" and pulled me to him. and we made out. and he tasted like an ashtray. a good tasting ashtray though. and i was kissing his neck like crazy. and he did the same to me. and i wound up moaning, but i dont think he heard. thank God too, 'cause i'd be so embarassed. and i could feel his heart beating. and i thought it was the most beautiful thing ever. i miss him so much. i let him read something yesterday. it was how i was going to tell him that 3 word phrase i did. and i was so embarassed. and i ran up ahead of him and stayed with mickey for a while. but i wanna know where this leaves me and dan. am i just that one girl to hook up with? or am i more? is he gonna break up with his girlfriend? and come back to me? would i take him back? same answer as always. in a heartbeat. crap, i need to talk to him about this stuff. but do i act like nothing happened? i'm so confused. i'm so in love. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 25th, 2006
7:40 am	i'm an addict for dramatics i confuse the two for love. dan is a liarface. and i dont care if he reads this. "i think we should take a break and get to know eachother as friends." you fucking liar! you just wanted to date someone else. you could have just told me that instead of lying to me. i thought he was different. but no. hes just the same. just exactly the same. but of course i'm still gonna be his friend. and wanna know the very very worst part? i'd still take him back. in a heartbeat. even after all this shit. i dont know how i'm gonna make it through the day at school today. its gonna be terrible. shouldn't i know by now that all guys are jerks? but no. i dont ever learn. why cant i just find a nice guy who likes me for me and wont leave me for the next girl that walks by. i have this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. or maybe its just because i havent eaten anything. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
6:55 am	moving too fast and taking breaks "I want to know what your thinking" BULLSHIT. you dont want to know what i'm thinking because someone ALWAYS gets hurt. and its usually me. Dan says we're moving too fast and he wants us to take a break and hang out as friends and try dating again later. but how long is a break? a week? a month? a year? would i take him back after that? in a heartbeat. i'm actually really disapointed but i know where hes coming from. this was happening really fast. and a stupid 3 word phrase has gotten me into this. i said i didnt regret it before. but i do. and i still dont take it back. but i need to think more the next time. i wish he could feel what i feel. not the pain. the good stuff he made me feel. the way my heart speeds up when he holds my hand. the way it skips when he touches me. they way it jumped when he sent me a text message saying 'it could be love' the way i feel when he tells me i'm amazing. what do i do when i see him? kiss? hug? casual wave like nothing ever happened? he said he'll call me today when i get out of school. but i'm hysterical and i dont want him to hear what hes doing to me. we didnt even last a week. its only wednesday! i did something i hadn't done in a few years last night. i prayed. i prayed that he'd come back. i prayed he wouldn't find someone new. even though i think he already has. i know how horrible and selfish that is. but if you met him, you'd know why. trust me, you would do the same thing. my mom is hysterical now too. shes being sued by the school she works at because the principal says she was medically unstable to teach. and they want her to give back 6 months of her salary. and so i just made her even worse. she told me i could stay home from school today. what do i do on my myspace? i know it wont say i'm in a relationship anymore but do i take down his picture? i'm confused. and i'm hurt. and i need a hug. Current Music: liar (it takes one to know one) - taking back sunday (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
10:36 am	Its only words MUSIC: words - the bee gees [[stfu]] I'm sick like whoa. Mixture of allergies and staying out in the cold. And my cousin, Catherine. I sent Dan this journal yesterday. He sent me a message that said that it made him tear and i was too amazing. But he really is the one thats too amazing. I'd probably blow up or something without him. OH! guess what! 10 more pounds and i'll be at my pre-medication weight. I'm so happy. Bryan sent me a message on myspace. He called me a slut and went off about Dan. I hope he doesnt talk to Dan on myspace. Not that i have anything to hide. I'm afraid Bryan will make up some shit. I'm afraid he'll think i'm a slut too. I'm afraif he'll believe him. And thats the last thing i want. Considering hes the first one of my boyfriends to treat me like a human being. Hes so special to me. And i dont want him to think any less of me. My mom was listening to the bee gees. And i asked to borrow her CD after i heard this song called words. "talk in everlasting words and dedicate them all to me." "its only words and words are all i have to take you heart away." Its one of the most beautiful songs i've ever heard. Even if its by the Bee Gees. Like if that song had a penis, i'd totally sex it. [[the song, not the bee gees]] LstDiscoMassacre: im not that special though x3HollywoodHills: you really really are x3HollywoodHills: and no matter how many times i say it, i know you still wont think so. however, i'm gonna tell you as many times as you need to hear it. LstDiscoMassacre: awe your so wonderful to me x3HollywoodHills: i cant even compete with what you do for me hes so adorable. and i dont want to lose him. hes too special. OH MAN! i have a large bruise on my arm from the cyclone. that ride hurts like shit. and its scary as fuck. but really fun. my bestest friend ever, Eve is all 'I WANNA MEET DAN!' but her dad is religious and they celebrate this thing called the sabbath and they cant really go out on firday nights and saturdays. so we'll have to meet up on a sunday. but i'll have to leave early. and i dont want to =[ oh! and my manwhore cousin joe thinks he got his girlfriend pregnant. but he doesnt know. gosh, its called a condom. does nobody know about these things? i know this sounds bad, but joe cant be a father. he cant even keep his own life under control. let alone someone elses. and hes only 17. and shes only 15. they cant have a kid. we'll just have to wait and see though. tyler gave me a weird foot massage yesterday. i was sleeping and he just started rubbing my feet. creepy much? i wound up kicking him the face. dan compared it to pulp fiction where the guy gets thrown out the window. which is a movie i <3 to death. fo' seriously. imma go take a nap now. i really dont feel good. and i came home early yesterday. and my mom doesnt know i'm home today. so i'll probably sneak out before hand. i have to go to my psychologist anyway. (Comment on this)
Monday, May 22nd, 2006
9:19 pm	Too Amazing for Words I told Dan something yesterday. Something i wasnt ready to tell, even though i felt it. Something i knew he wasnt ready to hear. Something i knew i wasnt ready to hear. Something i think freaked him out a bit. I really didnt mean to. I just felt like i was keeping something from him if i didnt tell him. But he replied VERY maturely and i dont regret saying it at all. And i still feel the same, even if he doesnt. Even if he never will, i'm okay with that. Is that bad? I dont know. But hes too amazing for words. And hes too amazing for me. And i dont deserve him. But as long as he thinks i do, thats fine with me. Oh! and i over heard my parents talking today. My mom said she was happy that i had a boyfriend. And my dad said he was too, except he wishes he knew more about him. But i cant believe my dad said that! Hes the mean parent! My friends even nicknamed him the Nazi! But i'm really happy. Ooh! and if anyone actually is reading this, i have a picture! Hes so great. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 20th, 2006
11:44 pm	Boyfriend Alert GUESS WHAT! Dan = new boyfriend. And being that he is the amazing guy he is, i wont end up like what happened with Bryan. However Bryan seemed nice at first. We'll have to see. Anyways, to the story of me and Dan: We went to coney first and i asked if he'd come on the cyclone with me and he said yes. And he kissed me while we were waiting on line, looking at some scene kids. And then we got on the cyclone. And i DEFINATELY would have pissed my pants if he wasnt there. but i feel safe with him. I yelled at him a few times for putting his arms up. We hung out a bit after that. running into my parents who HAD to meet everyone before hand. Then we went on the N train to st. marks. On the train, they had these two seats all secluded and stuff and we sat in them and cuddled. and then made out. hes a REALLY good kisser by the way. a bit sloppy? yes, but wonderful none the less. He took off all my chapstick though. But his kisses = way worth it. 2 make-out sessions during that one train ride. Nadia wound up hanging upside down off the pole. weird stuff but funny. Then we made it to st. marks, saw a hell of a bunch of scene kids, shared a vitamin water, bought 2 pairs of $6 k mart shoes, kissed and held hands and all the jazz. Then Dan and Rob had to go to a party. So me and Mickey took the train with them to the ferry. And we saw a mime. And Mickey punched me in my womanhood. And Dan and i made out AGAIN. And I told him about the bet eve and joe had on whether or not i was coming home single or not. He said he was too shy. I asked if he'd say yes. He said he would. I asked him if he'd be my boyfriend. He said yes. We made out again. Then we kissed goodbye. Even though i wish i could spend more time with him. But i knew i couldn't. So i let him go. And i miss him already. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 19th, 2006
4:40 pm	Daydream Believer MUSIC:daydream believer - the monkeys LstDiscoMassacre: i think i was daydreaming about you when i fell asleep in class :/ x3HollywoodHills: your myspace made me late to school LstDiscoMassacre: how so x3HollywoodHills: i got lost there x3HollywoodHills: and the kinda lost where you dont want to be found LstDiscoMassacre: awee your to perfect x3HollywoodHills: i'm really not. i just try harder with you. LstDiscoMassacre: why, im i so special, im not im nobody x3HollywoodHills: are you kidding me? your everybody. x3HollywoodHills: at least to me you are LstDiscoMassacre: that means alot too me it really does, know one has been so nice to me latley x3HollywoodHills: well you deserve better then what i'm capable of LstDiscoMassacre: dont say that, your more than i can ask for LstDiscoMassacre: you desevre to be with someone, handsome, and more than perfect cause thats what you are, not me though cause im not:[ x3HollywoodHills: babe, there arent people created as perfect as you. and you are handsome. you really are. Adorable much? He daydreamed about me. I more then likely going to get to see him on saturday. My parents are deciding. I'm REALLY excited. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 18th, 2006
8:36 pm	More About That Boy So i was talking to Dan a few minutes ago and... LstDiscoMassacre: is there any chance that i can kiss you again O:-) x3HollywoodHills: quite frankly, i'd be a bit disappointed if you didnt I feel like a giddy school girl. Its terrible Boys shouldnt be able to do this to me. Especially ones i just met. oh! and look at the comment he left me on myspace yesterday: Cute, no? (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 13th, 2006
8:25 pm	New Journal MOOD:damn good. MUSIC:bury your dead - 33rpm Well my last journal got hacked and i was pissed. ehh, its not like there was anything of any importance in it. i pretty much only use livejournal to read slashes. And there was nothing of any real importance in that journal anyway. and they only people who read this are my friends with out livejournals. But i have something of importance this time. I met a boy today. I know, not that big, but this boy is something else. His name is Dan. Hes Rob's friend. Hes REALLY cute and super nice. And the best part is... He kissed me. I'm thinking he must be blind or something. But we had fun today in coney island and the city. This boy is DEFINATELY gonna be on my mind for a while. And i just got his screenname from Rob. (Comment on this)